Worn-Out Wednesday Presents: Coffee, in the Time of COVID19

Yesterday–

I went to the drive-thru at Starbucks.

As the barista handed me a cup

of hot, black coffee–

The tips of our fingers brushed

ever so slightly,

for less than half a second.

And as I took my first bittersweet sip,

I realized–

That was the only human touch,

I had felt in nearly six months.

. . .

And I took another sip.

And thought about killing myself.

And I took another sip.

And tried not to think about killing myself.

And I took another sip.

And tried not to think about thinking about killing myself.

And I took another sip.

And another.

And another.

Until the cup was half full.

http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

9 thoughts on “Worn-Out Wednesday Presents: Coffee, in the Time of COVID19

    1. Yeah, I am working on it. Savoring a food or drink is a grounding technique to draw your mind away from anxiety and thoughts of self-harm. I’m getting help, just working through some of it creatively.

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      1. Are you around all the fires then? I have a lot of family out west. They’ve been dealing with quarantine by getting outside into nature, and now that’s off the table too. 😦 Hope you are able to stay safe.

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